February 2012
19 posts
My heart. Really. Hurts.
I just noticed that everything I’ve been posting up recently has been black/white. Interesting…
Watchwithoutmelissa:
This is a love story.
It’s about our friends Mark and Giulia and the courageous journey they took through and out of the dark, steep path of mental illness. I think like most of their friends, we never could have imagined that the always smiling, full of energy Giulia that we had grown to love during our time in San Francisco could be going through this. It felt so sudden. So...
Soo this just happened...
Mom: *Just starting to burn an incense*
Me: Oh whats that?
Mom: It's sage do you like it?
Me: You're making plans to kill me and don't want me to hear aren't you?
Mom:
Me:
Mom:
Me:
Mom: What?
Me: What..
“Some things are hard to write about. After something happens to you, you go to...”
– Sylvia Plath (via stellablu)
yeah….
“I get so emotional, baby
Every time I think of you…..”
– Whitney Houston
Dear Douche,
You are my oldest friend. We met in first grade in our platano colored uniforms and shared swiss rolls, at least whenever I was feeling generous, and you chewed the strands of my hair when you sat behind me because it tasted good to you. I couldn’t stand you. I compared us to Family Matters’ Laura and Urkel and Arnold and Helga from Hey Arnold!. I was Helga always bullying you or...
“iii
and me angel
i’m tryin to write this
in honor of your divinity
but i...”
– by suheir hammad from Angles got no maps in Listen Up! ed. zoe anglesey (via abalones)
Its my birthday, Ill get hi if I want to...
Today Im 27 years old. I havent celebrated my birthday since ‘09. That was my last birthday cake, my last family get together, my last happy birthday choir. For the past two years I asked if we could please just skip it. I didnt want to hear the birthday song. I didnt want the attention. I didnt want anything. I dont know why.
This year I thought it would be different. But its not. I still...
I was raised to be insecure.
“We splashed our imagination across the cosmos, and felt live rain down to our...”
– h(m)
January 2012
29 posts
I got an early bday gift from a friend. Suheir Hammad Born Palestinian Born Black…Ive been wanting this book for a good 7 years now. Best gift ever. <3.
Eeeeek!! I want these if I gave out Vcards.
One thing I have gotten a lot recently is that I shouldnt always feel so guilty all the time. Today I noticed it. I feel guilty of everything. No one knows everything about me. I have certain friends that I tell about certain things that I do. Im scared of how some people would be if they knew - that I would be some kind of disappointment or they would just see me as a bad person or woudnt want to...
“I want to talk to everybody I can as deeply as I can. I want to be able to sleep...”
– Sylvia Plath
(via stellablu)
1 tag
………….
Shower. Check.
Silk pajama shorts. Check.
Red wine. Check.
Blanket on couch. Check.
Vampires??? Where art thou??
This is madness.
I need new friends. Real friends.
“It’s not who you are that holds you back, it’s who you think you’re not.”
– (via beccacarrolll)
God,
Can I wake up tomorrow morning and, just, be better?
"Exit Left, Wordlessly"
” A story that haunts me involves a woman I know whose fiance went out to inspect a potential apartment for their married life and never came back. He wasn’t dead in a ditch. He was just gone, without clarification….. ‘ambiguous loss’. Its how psychologists differentiate a death that doesn’t involve a body, like a soldier who goes missing in action or a spouse...
I dont understand why if a guy asks me “Where are you? Who are you with?” its ok. But if I ask him the same thing it means I want a serious relationship.
I dont understand why if a guy says were dating and wants to fuck its ok. But if I want to flirt and hold hands it means I want to get married.
I dont understand why because I pay my rent, and all my bills, and I got me it means...
I have a radar for B.S.
“If my inside scars were visible, I would be rushed to the ER.”
Exactly.
"It is right. Just not right now."
delenaxnian:
DEAR LORD FROM HEAVEN ABOVE
UpDates:
1. I need to make a bucket list.
2. I need to add “spend a weekend as a stoner” on my bucket list and cross it off. I did absolutely nothing but fade morning to night and watch How I met your mother and eat a couple times in between shows. I did shower though. So I was a clean stoner.
3. My hair caught on fire at 330am! Im an idiot. Long story short- my eyelashes got singed from my...
““Why did you do all this for me?’ he asked. ‘I don’t...”
– E.B White
December 2011
15 posts
I invited my sister to sleep over tonight to add a bit of a christmas flair to my home. It sounded all good to me until I thought about night time…”I cant smoke weed” just kept playing over and over in my head like a haunting nightmare. I come from a very strict, ‘saintly’ if you want to call it kind of family - so hearing about this is death for some of them.
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